Beautiful Disaster.

YThursday, November 03, 2005
today's Hari Raya and i really cant sleep fer shytz. TSK.

went to IKEA and got some stuff fer the rooommm...well our theme colour is blue and greenn...but it turned out mostly blue..but it's kinda coooll...hehe...wit the whiteboard and the pics and yada yada..haha..credits to fana and moi fer the new look!=p
will post the pic wen i got the time..hmm..Dad's naggin wit the same ol same ol shytz that he keep repeating without realising that he's testing my freakin patience.ASSness.

haiz.i went fer a haircut last Sunday..cut quite short and permed it to make the curlz visible..and straightened the fringe..looked kinda diff..a good haircut i must say..hehe cuz ellyas thinks its nice..credits to Aida fer takin me to the salon!!hehe..but poor fafa..the curlz didnt turn out well cuz her hair is naturally straight..

oh wellzz....im not really celebratin hari raya tis yr..but i duno y im makin more preparations tis year as compared to every other year..mebe it's cuz of the cashflow..heh.

listened to the takbir at Sakura at capitol..got the "chills" fer awhile there cuz i would usually be at home wit my family..but oh wellz..im stil wit family[fana,yaya and the kiz]..i duno y..but each time i listen to it i'll get all teary-eyed fer awhile..fer the fact that alota stuff has happened..and every year marks a new beginning of another dramatic chapter or perhapz, if we are lucky..a good memorable one..i dun giv a shyt anymore wat to expect tis comin year..im just gona be optimistic somehow..

with bro comin back tis friday..i hope that he'd change somehow..
alota things are comin back.i cant sleep.gona go start baking now.
till then, Selamat Hari Raya..Maaf Zahir dan Batin..

Take care peepz!

p/s:abg wan..we are celebratin 1st day of raya at Mak Long's cuz it's her bday..
and i hope that u are doin fine there..we miss you..u take good care and dun weri abt us k?
and we dun mind abt u not bein able to giv us the card..
Slamat Hari Raya to u 2..Maaf Zahir&Batin.
Hugz&Kisses
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Emylin
The Ride

this life is all about loving and losing. sacrificing and hurting.
being dissappointed in just about anything including urself.

this is life in my eyes.

- an unbearable excruciating painful hurt and experience that kills.
life in living is like death in dying.
where u live with a purpose and u die with a cause
all of which reasons hurt
and none of which will give u the happiness that u deserve.

yes i am fickle and yes i am a hardcore depressed chic.
but no.im no bimbo cuz i apparently make use of my brain cells 3/4 of my waking hour.
dun mess with me.